I'm confused...

Did I make the right decision when I moved here? I feel like everything has gone wrong since I came here. God keeps taking care of me, he promised he would, but I feel so lost. Like I'm treading water and waiting for the rescue boat and afraid that it's staring me in the face. My friends in NY were all getting married or beginning families, so I thought that moving here would be a change and that would lead to finding my man. Well, 20 months later I still don't have a man and my NC friends are all getting married or having kids. So, I don't feel I've changed anything other than the distance to my sister's house. I don't really want to move back to NY, even though I was happy there, but I'm really depressed over the lack of man in my life. My only childhood dream was to grow up and be a mommy. Why is it 31 years later and it's still not happening? God, this Christmas I want a husband. Thank you, love me.